By Skylar Jones
Two weeks in the past, my boss requested if I had time to speak along with her. She didn’t inform me beforehand, so I knew this wouldn’t be good.
We had talked beforehand about my efficiency at work. I had been a receptionist for 3 years, consistently asking to be promoted with no such luck. How are you going to count on me to be excited for 3 years on the entrance?
The HR woman advised me she was sorry to be the bearer of dangerous information, however they had been going to let me go. At first, I used to be in shock. I couldn’t consider it. I used to be pondering of how I used to be going to pay my payments, the place I used to be going to work, and if I might get out of this.
I had been wanting to go away for a very long time now and had been actively looking out, even happening interviews, however clearly, nothing caught.
Regardless that I didn’t like working there, I nonetheless felt defeated and like a failure. However all through all of this, I’ve realized what I need out of life, and I’ve actively seen my life change for the higher daily.
I noticed what sort of job I really needed.
If I bought fired for a job I hated, I definitely didn’t need to be in that place once more. I noticed I’m not simply going to search out one other job as a result of I would like one. I need to actually prefer it. I desire a job that pays properly, has flexibility, and I need to actually like the corporate.
I need to be passionate in regards to the job I’m doing.
I needed to rethink my life selections. With my checking account dwindling, I needed to cancel my gymnasium membership to the lovable, little, studio gymnasium I used to be in love with. I needed to cease shopping for face merchandise for the Korean 10-step program. This pressured me to solely use my cash to pay my payments.
It’s actually humbling coming from a wage which you could splurge, to having to start out consuming oatmeal daily. I’ve a brand new appreciation for magnificence spending cash.
The place was I going to reside? My price of residing is fairly excessive, and my financial savings couldn’t fund me eternally. With out budging on taking a job I hate, I had to determine what I used to be going to do if I don’t discover a job in time.
I’m not the form of one who asks their dad and mom for cash, I’m not going to couch-surf, and so, I assumed I’ll have to maneuver in with my household.
This meant transferring again to my residence state. The considered this was very humbling, and I began to cry, I like my metropolis. I like how a lot there’s to do, I like the climate, and I like driving horses.
However what is healthier, getting a job I hate the place I’m at many of the day, or restarting in a unique metropolis? I’m going to decide on the latter. As a result of I care extra about my psychological state now.
My general well being is superb. After a number of weeks of being unemployed, I observed how rather more relaxed I’m. I didn’t notice my job was killing me.
I used to be working at a fast-paced agency, and the folks I labored with had been essentially the most high-maintenance folks I’ve ever met. They wanted it carried out proper now, and their manner and so they wanted their handheld the entire time.
These folks come from a number of the most prestigious faculties and so they nonetheless don’t know tips on how to get on a convention name. The joke I advised everyone seems to be I don’t have youngsters, as a result of I’ve 100 on the workplace. I didn’t have to wipe another person’s a**.
I’m not hating my life and I’m not wired anymore. My bodily well being is healthier after dropping my job. My boyfriend has been commenting on how good my physique seems. Earlier than, I used to be too skinny, however now my physique is at a greater, more healthy weight.
I’ve been working for about 10 years now, and I by no means thought I might get fired. However, that’s life and s*** occurs. It’s nonetheless laborious to consider, however what has advanced has been superb.
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Skylar Jones is a author who gives a voice for ladies on subjects of heartbreak and relationships. Go to her writer profile on Unwritten for extra.
This text was initially revealed at Unwritten. Reprinted with permission from the writer.